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TRUSTED HIM TOO MUCH AND HE BETRAYED ME...
I am 19, studying in BA second year (English Hons). I loved to paint and
dance and I used to be very friendly. My friends called me ‘Chirpy’. But
this smile disappeared a year ago when Roop came into my life. Roop was
a final year engineering student from Bangalore. He was classy, handsome
and, I thought, the man of my dreams. We met at a party on 19 December,
1998. My friend Disha introduced me to him, he was Disha’s second cousin.
The moment I met him, I felt that the world was for me alone. It was as
though all my dreams had come true. But little did I know that this day
was the start of a nightmare for me.
It was Roop who proposed to me, with a shyness that made me fall head over
heels in love with him. We went to discos, parties and even pubs. I enjoyed
being with him, a sense of security enveloped me whenever I was close to
him. My parents were always against this relationship. They warned me several
times, but I did not pay attention to them. I was blindly in love. On 14th
February, 1999—Valentine’s Day—I was invited by Roop’s parents. They had
a large mansion. I was a bit nervous because it was the first time I was
to meet his parents. Roop told me that his mother wanted to talk to me.
I trusted Roop so much that I forgot the fact that Roop’s parents were least
bothered about this relationship, as he was just 24—too young. Anyway, it
was around 7.30 pm when we reached his place. When we entered, the whole
house was empty. I asked Roop where his parents were but he kept quiet.
At around 8 pm Roop showed me his true colours. Yes, I have no hesitation
in admitting that the boy whom I loved blindly, raped me brutally—along
with four of his friends. On Valentine’s Day, when people take an oath that
they will love and protect each other forever, I lost everything. Roop had
never loved me, he had been scheming all along with his friends to get my
body. He knew that I trusted him too much to see through his lies. Today,
I am helpless. I cannot tell this to anyone, as I cannot let Roop down.
If my parents had come to know, they would have lodged an FIR against him.
I wouldn’t have been bothered if Roop faced the penalty, but I could not
tolerate my love for him, and his betrayal, being written about in detail,
every day, in newspapers. People would have relished the headlines, not
knowing the pain behind it.
Roop fled to London to his uncle and aunt. My parents, Disha and all my
friends still ask me the cause of my split with him. I remain silent and
I know the truth will remain hidden in my heart forever. My life has become
a barren desert where love will never take root again. I am passing my teenage
life with a false smile on my face. Will Roop ever confess and repent? Will
I ever get justice? I know the question will always remain unanswered and
yet I will always wait for it.
- Radhika Sinha, West Bengal |
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